Dream Diary

I’ve been meaning to write about this, but I have been procrastinating cuz I am not quite sure where I should start. I finally decide that I should jot this down to justify my lame excuse on why I sleep so less lately.

My best friend Pauline knock on my head through twitter early this morning, saying that 4-5 hours sleep is not enough for me, and I should sleep more. Regularly. I bet she’s wanting to kick my butt and punch some senses into my thick skull, and get some proper sleep instead of being such a vamp.

But the thing here is, I can’t sleep. I have difficulties going to sleep, ever since the fire happened. No matter how hard I try, I’ll end up tossing and turning on the bed, and it frustrates me, and therefore the 3 o’clock fairy’s solitude becomes a habit. I end up doing things when people around me are sleeping their head off.

When night arrives, I’ll feel too alert to sleep, and could only go to sleep when the sun rises. Thank heavens I am a freelance, else I would be fired from my job.

Anyway, back to the point. I used to have disturbing dreams and nightmares a few years back. It slowly gets better as I began to jot down my dreams and nightmares that I got when I was asleep in my dream diary when I woke up. Slowly, gradually, the lingering nightmares began to fade, but lately, it happened again, and I am not quite sure what contributes to it. Stress? Trauma? I am not quite sure.

I know what dreams are made of, they are our subconscious. Or the memories or things that we want to lock away but unable to when we’re asleep. They are made of stress and the events that happened when we’re awake.

I am not quite sure what’s going on with me and my body, but the problems 3 years back reoccurs again, and I began to experience reoccurring dreams. The worst thing about these recurring dreams and nightmares is that the memories of it lingers in my head when I woke up. I could not forget those dreams as they are too vivid. Some of these dreams are so real and horrible that sometimes, I woke up sweating, gasping for breath and sometimes, even more worst, screaming. These dreams, often confuses me, and it’s hard to distinguish between dreams and reality sometimes.

Sleep…is not something that’s relaxing to me these days. Hey… don’t blame me. Can you imagine going to sleep dreaming that your loved ones are killed, desert you or even betray you in the worst way possible? Killed in an accident, killed by people you hate, killed by the fire or even murdered. Seeing your loved ones… like your husband or wife having sex with someone else before your very eyes and many more does not sit well with me. To be honest, I am afraid to go to close my eyes and go to sleep. Of course the dreams are not all bad all the time. There are good ones, but I don’t get them often.

I think, before things get out of hand, I should control my dreams and not my dreams control me, and therefore, I’m going to revive my long forgotten habit, which is to write down my dreams and nightmare on my Dream Diary.

And since my Dream Diary was spared from the fire a couple of months ago, I think I am going to just resume it from the last entry…It was Wednesday, 7th September 2005, sleep cycle 11.00pm-7.00am. Well… it’s time to say hello to old friends again. Unless someone want to sponsor me some nice journal or notebook to write as a Xmas pressie. 😛

See… below is my old dream diary. Dating back to year 2004. *sigh* Now I have to use it again so that I can vanguish my nightmares and make fun of em. or better still, use them as an inspiration for my novels and upcoming works. Great idea, no?

The dream diaries are small notebooks with tiny locks attach to it. It’s all rusty now. I tried finding similar notebooks a few days ago, but couldn’t find it anyway. guess I’ll just have to write on the remaining diaries until I run out of pages and get a new one.

Some of you may be intrigue with Dream Diaries and want to keep one of your own. Here’s some tips for you, in case you want to jot down your dreams like me for reasons only known to yourself.

You will need to keep a dream diary if you want to work on your dreams. A dream diary is like a daily diary except that in it you record your sleeping instead of your waking adventures. You should keep paper and pencil by the side of your bed and record your dreams upon awaking, otherwise, you will forget your dreams easily.

But what kind of detail should you include in your dream diary? The answer is, the more detail the better. As you gain practice and train yourself in a dream recall, you will find more and more details come back to you. Write them down.

The following are some points you should bear in mind:

1. Write down the dream events in their proper order. This may seem unimportant if the events appear unrelated to each other. But once you begin the process of analysis, relationships often become very clear.

2. Keep a careful note of the dream characters. Who was in your dream and what did he or she do? If they remind you of someone you know in waking life, write this down. Don’t trust to memory.

3. If well-known scenery appears, record any differences between it and the same scenery in waking life. Were the bookshelves in the right places? Were the books the same as real life? And so on.

4. Similarly, record any differences between well-known people in the dream and in real life.

5. Record any non-human characters that appeared in the dream (animals, ghosts) or any inanimate objects that behaved as if alive.

6. Make a special note of any recurring events, themes or characters. Do they always occur/behave in exactly the same way?

7. Not down all the colours you see.

8. Note down your emotional responses to everything.

Finally don’t trust to memory. When you read back over your dream diary you may find you have no recollection at all of having some of the dreams. However clear they seem at the time, write them down.

Cleffairy: Recurring dreams and nightmares bothers me. And I might as well write them down and make fun of them instead of letting the dragons bites me!

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23 Responses to Dream Diary

  1. Uninvoked says:

    Recurring dreams are usually your subconscious trying to tell you something, and they won’t go away until you understand what it is they are trying to tell you.

    • cleffairy says:

      *sigh* I actually know why I’ve been having those dreams… but I can’t help it. I think it’ll need some time to let tstop bothering me.

  2. suituapui says:

    You have so many dreams kah? I hardly dream… If you do not sleep well, take passion flower…or St John’s Wort – herbal treatments to help relax…and sleep better. Should be able to get at Guardian…

    • cleffairy says:

      Yalor, Cikgu…horrible… get too much dreams that I feel scared to go to sleep. Summore, feel hard to relax. Keep tossing and turning in bed. I tried so many things, from classical, hot shower to milk and cookies, all cannot. Maybe will try your method ahhh… see can relax anot.

  3. Joanna says:

    I used to have really bad nightmares, usually about the things that bother me at that point of time… And usually these are products of an overactive imagination before I go to bed. As cliche as this sounds,I’ve found that going to bed with only happy thoughts tend to keep the nightmares at bay …

    • cleffairy says:

      Overactive imaginations? LOL… I am well known for having wild imaginations, and that’s why I put them into writing. They help me forget what I imagined. But this time, i think it’ll take some time. I think I’m having a mild PTSD… 😦 My house was on fire back in July. I suppose my brain still refuses to forget about it though I’ve moved on. 😦

      Happy thoughts keep nightmare at bay? Really Joanna? I am not sure…not sure if it’ll work for me, cuz even when I go to bed fully relaxed and had a happy and fulfilling day, I still get nightmares…and usually I ends up gasping for breath. 😥

  4. Lord Zara says:

    It’s been ages I dont write in physical diary~
    maybe cz I dont want anyone to read it~

    • cleffairy says:

      LOL… I wun write a diary… It’s been ages for me too since I wrote a diary. Since 1996, I think… my mum went and read em, and since then, I never bother writing anymore diary, cuz there’s no point writing a diary if no one respects my privacy. But dream diary is different. LOL… they are just what I dreamed about…. they’re not real. LOL…

  5. tuti says:

    u sleep under a beam or directly across a pillar or sharp edge?
    ya, not that i believe in things like that, but sleeping under a beam gives me nightmares. can’t explain either.

    and yes, sometimes the reality of things flow over to the subconscious mind. got to have a grip of things in the present that’s bothering, and the past trauma of the fire is real too. hugs from across the border.

    • cleffairy says:

      Huh? No… I din sleep under direct beam or a pillar, or even a sharp edge.

      *sigh* I suppose it’s my subconscious….perhaps I am still traumatized with the past events where I barely cheated Death. I din think about it anymore but it’s still in the back of my head. *SIGH* it’s disturbing.

      Back in 2004-2005, things bothered me also,and I get recurring dreams as horrible as the current ones. I jot them down in my dream diary, and eventually, they go away. I just hope the old tactic will work again. LOL…

  6. kimberlymay says:

    my dad always dreams when he falls asleep, regardless if it is a short nap. Sometimes he will tire himself to the point that he sleeps out of tiredness and doesn’t dream anything. I never heard of dream diaries until I read your entry. Maybe I can suggest it to my dad 🙂

    • cleffairy says:

      *sigh* at least when your dad is tired, he wun get any dreams. While for me… my sleep is more fitful when I’m tired. I’m told that I even mumbles in my sleep when I’m too tired. 😦

  7. lily says:

    Girlie, you are carrying too much with you. Our memory in our brain-space needs to release old data for the input of new ones. Let go some of the things that you think are not worthy off for you to carry on with you, and allow the new ones to be input. Learn to be choosy and picky. Choose and pick what you want to input in your brain. Those that were not chosen, will be demolished in fire-GWTW! Gone With The Wind 🙂

  8. kenwooi says:

    hmmm interesting..
    i have weird dreams at times.. rarely have nightmares, but once in a blue moon..
    a friend of mine tried to jot down his dreams, but i dont.. haha..
    mine is pretty random.. my dreams can go 360 degrees and i think nothing can be related.. mostly dreams that are related to what have happened to me, or maybe what i really expect from my life.. =)

    • cleffairy says:

      LOL… sometimes, we have to jot down what’s bothering us, so that we can forget. I heard about dream diary when I started to look up on google few years back when I have terrible recurring nightmare. Make me scream almost every nite. So I started writing one, and it gets more less. Good therapy, I think. At least it work for me.

  9. claire says:

    hey Cleffairy, every tot of making your font bigger here? I have to take off my specs, glued my eyes nearer to the pc to read .. pity this blogger here who is old enough to be yr mama la.. lol…
    anyway, talking about dreams, i do have every night, without fail one…sometimes i post it here, don’t ask me to write in diaries, sure go missing and all will be wasted..
    so is it our subconscious mind that cause us to dream such dreams? wonderful then, i better start thinking of Mark Lester this very minute.. :p

  10. cleffairy says:

    LOL… paiseh… i go and find way to make my fonts bigger. It’s been bothering me oso… but I have yet to discover how to make it bigger ahh…. LOL… hang on ahhh…

    Yeah… it’s our subconscious/suppressed memories that caused us to have dreams. If only it works that way, i faster think about Rain ahhh… den can dream him dance for me! LOL…

  11. claire says:

    cleffairy, i also paiseh paiseh..requesting u to make bigger.. thanks… so…tonight i wonder what i will dream about.. as long as it is not nightmares, anything will do.. lets see.. i have been listening to OLivia newton john and bee gees this whole day .. maybe i dream of singing together with them later on.. :p

  12. Christopher says:

    That’s interesting! I’ve read that dreams can be the key to unlock your problems or even opportunities. However, I wonder how to wake up when you’re dreaming and when you’re wide awake in the morning, it just dissappear like a puff of smoke. (I still trying to remember the lottery no. I dreamt few days ago…. *sigh*)

  13. Marcia Dream says:

    As you already know, recurring nightmares can be a sing of trauma, so you might consider seeing a counselor if they are causing you to be deprived of sleep.

    You might also consider learning how to lucid dream. That might make you feel more in control of your dreams, and enable you to change them so that they are less nightmarish and more pleasant.

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